jdirks1

I like dishwashers.

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so shea's mother has been in town to help him clean the appt since erik moved out...the place is now so clean and spotless that you have to wear a filter when you breath. well almost. but yesterday shea's mother was like "so do i get to meet jessica's family?" she mentioned this 2 times. so i set up breakfast for them tomorrow. only to find out tonight that shea's mother wasn't really serious. so she's freaking out. and my mother is getting up tomorrow to clean because "the house isn't clean enough". so she's freaking out. and rebecca is making muffins for breakfast and she "doesn't know what type they like!!!" so she's freaking out. and tommy thought "what?!?!?! you mean to say that shea's mother ISN'T 80?!?!?!" (SERIOUSLY!!!!!) so he's freaking out. AND so now shea and i are freaking out....how are we ever going to keep strait faces?!?!?!?!?! AND THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!!!!

I CAN'T WAIT!

i hate how life is always throwing you curve balls. you don't see them coming and then *BAM* they hit you in the face. i think i'm done with trusting people. i love to deeply and always get hurt. i hate being so sensitive. i try to hide it and hope that it goes away. but it doesn't. it's always there. and when someone says something it burns. deeply. i hate scars. they never go away. sometimes they fade. but when it gets cold they are there. ugly and purple. and everyone can see.

ok so tonight i think my worst fear was confirmed. shea did like alice.

So today i've had it.....trying to be friends with some one that doesn't care just hurts. And when they send you text all the time that hurt, are they really friends? He's driving me mad. crazy. i hate him. no one says things about my sister to her face. you're a jerk. and then when you bring other people into it, does it help? are you happy now? and about your text: "Well i never really was a friend of yours anyways. you've always hated me." well i do now.....goodbye....forever.....